I'm so... freaking... tired

I really have no reason, but it seems like for the last week I've wandered around in a daze or slept. I haven't done much stitching at all, and I haven't been sleeping well at night. I don't sleep during the day but even when I try to go to bed at a normal hour I don't sleep well, so it doesn't seem to matter if I take a cat nap when I get home or not. I can think of two reasons this is happening, and it's probably a combination of both:

1. The heat and humidity. Blech. We don't have a/c because of the drama to get it in this apartment (long story). It's actually not too bad in there for normal sitting around and stitching in front of fans, but it's a little warmer than I like for sleeping and I end up waking up or simply not sleeping as well as I'd like.

2. My mom was sick and told me last weekend that she had to get a CAT scan. Luckily, I found out this weekend that the tests came back negative and she's seeing an ENT this week for her problem, but that was in the back of my mind all last week and I guess it still is. Cancer runs in both sides of my family, and my father's mother died from it this past January. My mother's mother died from ovarian cancer and her aunt recently died from breast cancer, so I always think of that horrible disease when something goes wrong healthwise in our family. My dad has also fought skin cancer and prostate cancer. Luckily, they caught the prostate cancer very early in a blood test so they were able to take care of it before it did any damage. So yes, that possibility is always on my mind when a family member is sick and they can't immediately figure out what is wrong.

3. If I'm honest with myself, I know there's a third reason -- I've been eating like crap. I'm eating yogurt, cereal, berries and carrots during the day, but I think I'm not eating enough. Then I go home and don't cook because it's hot, so I tend to get a turkey or ham hoagie at WaWa, along with a small bag of popcorn. I guess I'm not eating completely horribly, but I'm normally a grazer and lately haven't been doing so well.

Blech. My health just tends to go downhill in the summer for reasons #1 and #3, plus my eyes water and get icky a lot more than they used to.

OK, that's enough whining for the day, just had to get it out. I'm sure I'll be myself again soon. I have to be careful, as I find myself more irritated than usual with some of the message board posts I see, and I don't want to get myself into trouble. If I hear one more time about how I'm going to Hell because I read/see movies about Harry Potter...! People who say this, of course, know absolutely nothing about the subject matter. If they did, they'd know that the magic is secondary, and the main plot is about choosing right from wrong even when doing the wrong thing is easier, loyalty, love, friendship, fighting for what you believe, etc. I'm not saying people have to read it because I like it, but quit shoving your holier-than-thou attitudes in my face! I'll never understand why LOTR is OK (I love it, too) and HP is not. Is it because Tolkien was a Christian and Rowling is not? Well, they also talk about how The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe is great because of the Christian symbolism, but it was written by an atheist. So, since it was written by an atheist doesn't it mean you shouldn't read it? I'll never understand the so-called reasoning behind all of this.

Ahem, well, NOW I'm done whining. :)

This and that

1. We're going to a Phillies game this afternoon, if it's not rained out. My organization bought tickets and $10 food vouchers for everyone who wanted to go, and there's 400 of us going. Should be fun. I don't care about the baseball game, but it's an excuse to wear jeans and hang out with people and get to know some of them better. Good deal all around!

2. I found out on the 123 board the other day that people are having problems with Pantene products. This is the first I've heard of it, but it may explain some things. Apparently, one of the problems is thinning/hair falling out. Well, in the last few years I've noticed this problem and on my crown my hair is thinner than it should be. I use Pantene off and on, but more often than other shampoos. I had my thyroid and iron checked a while back and they were fine, my blood sugar is fine (don't know if that would affect it, anyway), and I eat my fruits and veggies. So, I threw out all my Pantene products and am using something different. We'll see what happens.

I realize that some people love the stuff and have no problems, but this is probably like any other allergy -- some people are affected, others aren't. Then there are the self-proclaimed "experts" who claim it's a lie because "I haven't had any problems" but I say screw 'em. My hair, my problem. If I switch and nothing changes, I'll chalk it up to getting older, but jeesh! What's the harm in changing products if you think there may be a problem? Some people need to spend more time worrying about their own problems and their own families and maybe do something other than live on message boards all day.

Enough on that...

3. I had my pay-for-performance review earlier this week and it went very well. I either met or exceeded my specific goals I set for myself for the year and should see some sort of raise. Not sure yet how much, but anything helps. :) I had my annual review a few months ago, which is a review I get on the anniversary of my hire date and goes over my accomplishments and development, so I knew I was OK after that one. I thought I'd been doing a good job, but it always helps to hear it from your boss.

Oh, but racism no longer exists, right?

Yes, I've actually heard people claim racism no longer exists. I wish people would open their eyes once in a while.

Woman Says Landlord Told Her Neighbors Didn't Want Her Kind

Now, here's the "apology," but I don't buy it. They don't get it, and I don't know what to think of the neighbor -- he may be the scapegoat, or he may not be but is going back on what he said because he got caught. Who knows?

This sort of thing makes me mad for obvious reasons, but also because I'm in an interracial relationship and we are thinking of moving in the next year or so. I wonder how often we'll get picked over for a "better" couple and not even know about it. This particular man was stupid enough to leave that message on her machine. Most of them don't, they just rent the apartment/house to someone else who is more like "their kind."

I guess I'm in a ranty mood today, which is strange because I'm not ticked off in general. I just keep finding irritations wherever I go, it seems.

Mmmhmmm, and WE'RE the selfish ones, right?

OK, here's one for ya:

Meet the Sperm Snatchers

Basically, it's about young women who scope out men for quick relationships (I use that term liberally) or one-night stands so that they can get pregnant. They lie about being on birth control, etc. But it's OK, as long as they get their babies.

I'm sure this sort of thing has been going on since the beginning of time, but I still find it disgusting.

Enough already!

Paris Hilton is now in jail. I know this. Why does it have to be on the news. Every. Stinkin'. Day? This morning I hear that she won't be as glamorous coming out as going in. Well, duh. But you know, I really don't give a crap! She's getting more press out of this than for what she was doing before this -- which was basically being an obnoxious partier who is only known for being obnoxious and rich.

I really hate how this sort of thing is front page news when our soldiers are dying around the world. I guess it's supposed to help us not focus on that, but we need to remember what's going on in the rest of the world, not just here in America and not just to Americans.

"moon and stars" crap

OK. There's some commercial I keep hearing where the guy is telling his girlfriend/wife that he'll give her the moon and the stars. We hear the "moon and stars" thing all the time. Why is that romantic? I mean, really! Anyone can say that, but it's not really his to give away, is it? I guess I never figured out why that was so romantic.

Maybe I'm too practical about things sometimes (my mother would laugh at that one!), but it you want to give me something, give me grocery money. Better yet, give me a vacation to someplace simple where we can just hang out and do what we want and go where we want. I don't really want a lot or expect a lot, don't need fancy vacations, cars or roses every week. I guess that's why the moon and stars stuff just makes me roll my eyes.

Although, a 1967 Mustang would also be a pretty nice gesture... :)

Various stuff

Haven't been here for a while. We're having a bit of March Madness at work, but it will be flowing into April and the beginning of March. Just a lot of stuff going on.

1. Is it really necessary to listen to your voice mail on speaker phone at the highest volume possible with your door open? What if somebody is telling you something confidential? Do you have any idea how distracting and rude this is?

2. So, I hear that students who do their homework while on MySpace tend to see a drop in grades? Really? I never would have guessed! You mean if you're writing that term paper while talking to your buddies about that cute guy (or God knows what else) that you may get sidetracked while writing? Well, I never! Of course it's all the fault of MySpace, isn't it? Personal or parental responsbility has absolutely nothing to do with it.

3. Yesterday's weather was awesome! I wore my crop pants and a short-sleeved shirt. Today I'm wearing a skirt but am back to tights and a sweater, and tomorrow is a jeans and sweater/sweatshirt day. We are having our Wellness Walk on Saturday. If it weren't for one of my coworkers organizing it, I wouldn't go because it's going to be in the 30s. However, I really need to go to show support.

4. We are painting a huge mural next week. One of our programs has a huge (almost 100 feet) wall that has no windows or anything and needed something. So, our designer is sketching it today, with the help of some other staff members. It's going to consist of several panels of different scenes reflecting Philadelphia. We are getting clients from various programs, as well as staff, to paint it next week. I'm very excited, and scared. :) I hope I can get some press there.

5. Can you believe I'm STILL not done with Mermaid of the Pearls? I thought I'd be done with the stitching by now, but hope to finish this weekend. Yeah, I've said that before. Things have been crazy and I've been working more so haven't been stitching at night. This won't last forever, so I should be back into good stitching mode by May.

6. Tim and I are going away for my birthday, which happens to fall on Easter this year. We're going to New Hope, PA. I think it will be nice to get away for a few days and I'm taking the 9th off from work as we have the 10th off already (last day of Passover). Have I mentioned that I LOVE that we get normal holidays plus Jewish holidays?

Rant and Rave

1. Minor rant -- I hate it when people use the snow as an excuse to leave early. I'm not talking nasty, icy snow like we got in February. I'm talking 2 inches (at the most) of gently falling, dry powdery snow that doesn't even stick to the roads because they've been treated. I was in a training class for two days and a bunch of people said they had to leave early because of the snow, and left about 3 hours early. Come on! I know some people are scared to drive in snow, but THIS IS PHILADELPHIA, PENNSYLVANIA! We get snow every year, for cryin' out loud!

2. Rave -- I saw Zodiac yesterday after leaving my training on time. :) I got there just in time to get some yummies and sit down to watch it at 5PM and get home a little after 8PM and still have a little evening left. I really enjoyed it. I saw a review that said they thought it was too plodding and stuck too much to the case files, but I really liked it. It showed how they went through the process of figuring things out, finding out they were wrong, finding out maybe they were right, etc. It also showed how, years after the last killings, the Zodiac was still affecting lives in a big way. I also like a lot of the actors -- Jake Gyllenhaal, Robert Downey, Jr., Mark Ruffalo.

Glorifying the mob?

Maybe someone can explain this to me. I've seen several people say they didn't like that The Departed won the Oscar for Best Movie because they don't like movies that glorify the mob. Frankly, I loved The Departed and plan on buying it very soon. I understand people not liking it because of the violence and language in general, but don't understand how it glorifies crime.

How does Goodfellas or The Departed glorify the mob? Sure, they show the guys with a lot of money and power. They also show the vast majority of them dying in violent ways, some of them snitching on others and having to live in the 'burbs in the Witness Protection Program, etc. To me, they always showed how violent the mob is and how most people involved die an early death.

It's like people who got so upset over the song "Snowblind" by STYX. "Oh, it's talking about cocaine! We can't have it!" Well, if you listen to the lyrics, it's talking about addiction and how awful it is, not that it's great.

I don't get it.

A few tidbits

1. This was pretty cute. The sidewalks lately have been very icy in my neighborhood. Everything was melting during the day and then refreeze overnight, leaving a very thin and very slick coating of ice over everything. So, walking to the trolley this week has been... interesting. Anyway, I walk by an elementary school on my way to the trolley, and there were two kids on their way to school. I'm assuming they are brothers, one looks about 5 or 6 and the other looks about 8 or 9. The little one was running around, and the older one caught him, grabbed his hand, and in a matter-of-fact way said, "Stop running and be careful. Nobody wants to see you fall on your ass." I thought it was hysterical.

2. OK, this isn't so funny, this is ridiculous. One of the stitching boards has a debate regarding whether or not the head honchos at Panera should make some sort of public statement because two of their store managers have been *accused* (not even tried and convicted) of animal abuse. I abhor animal abuse, and hope they get punished if they did this. However, why the heck is Panera responsible? Panera should pay for the vet bills? Wha? Can you imagine the backlash if Panera made some sort of public statement about how they are going to fire these managers and how awful they are? Good grief! Only a few people think this way, but I don't get it. They think that any employer who hires people like this should be "investigated" on principle. Investigated for what? Not hiring private detectives to follow around people they interview for a $10 an hour job? Note where they go, if they drink at all, what they drive, if they've ever had a parking ticket, if they've ever had a one-night stand, if their mother missed a class in college 50 years ago?

Aren't we living with enough Big Brother crap? This is getting insane. Luckily, most people didn't agree, but I find it scary that anyone thinks this way.

Always something going on around here

OK, there's so many "What the hell?" questions in my mind surrounding this case I don't know where to start.

http://www.nbc10.com/news/10836672/detail.html

Apparently, a college student was pregnant but in denial, had the baby at her mom's house in Upper Darby, and somehow the baby ended up dead and in Mom's car in Grandpa's driveway in Drexel Hill, where I live. The biggest WTF? comes from the fact that the police aren't getting any information from the family.

What a mess!

Various stuff

1. Everybody wrote the Eagles off weeks ago when McNabb got hurt. Hey, I was one of them. I figured they weren't doing too well with him, what are they going to do without him? Yet, they're doing pretty well and I'm hoping they win against Dallas on Christmas. I think this is something that happens a lot in sports. So often, one or two key players on a team get all the glory and the team goes along with it and I think subconsiously put way too much dependence on those few key players, then it goes downhill because one or two people do not make a team. Then something happens to one of those key players and the rest of the team steps us and actually does better without them. Nothing against McNabb, of course, but sometimes I think it takes losing a major player for a while for a team to really come together and play as a team, not as a bunch of people led by one person who they expect to be a miracle worker.

2. The Rosie vs. Trump thing: Frankly, I think they are both obnoxious, loudmouth, hypocritical people. I'd like to put them both in a locked room and see who comes out alive. I haven't liked her for a long time for a few reasons. One reason is that she is completely anti-gun and mouths off about it, which is her right, but she also has armed guards. So, it's OK for her but not the rest of us to protect ourselves. I'm also sick of her attitude of "If you don't like me you're anti-gay!" crap. Lady, I don't care if you're black, white, straight, gay, Christian, Jewish, etc. If you're a jerk, you're a jerk. I'm no fan of Trump, who is obnoxious to people, cheats on women, and sues people to get them out of their homes for his casinos. I remember the big fight when I first moved here from a little lady living in her home that he was trying to force her out of. If I recall, she won the fight. So let them fight it out!

3. Just saw something kinda cool on the news. Two twins in California gave birth an hour apart from each other. One had a girl, one a boy.

If I get my hands on that little...

Some jackass just called my home as a prank a few minutes ago, about 1:30 in the morning. If I ever get my hands on this little jerk I swear he'd get a thrashing. It's bad enough to be calling people like that, but my grandmother is dying and if I get a phonecall past 9PM that's the first thing I think. Of course, the caller ID helps but this said "blocked call" so I didn't know who it was and thought it could be my parents calling from a different phone.

So, I'm tired as heck but when you get woken up like that your adrenaline kicks in a bit and it's hard to get back to sleep. I hope to soon, though.

I guess I haven't mentioned it here, het. Long story short, Grandma collapsed over Thanksgiving weekend when my sister was visiting. They took her to the hospital and found she has cancer all through her body and she's now in a Hospice. There's nothing they can do but make her as comfortable as possible. We've known that something has been wrong with her for a while, but she's a Christian Scientist so won't go to a doctor and won't tell anybody about her problems -- even though we all ask and try to get her to tell us.

Which brings up another point: I'm so sick of this damn disease taking away the people I care about! I have a stitching friend who is just a little older than me who has been fighting it for a few years. Every time they get rid of it in one place, it ends up someplace else. I lost my other grandmother to ovarian cancer in 1989 and her symptoms were very similar to what's now going on with my other grandmother. My great aunt's breast cancer has come back and she will probably be gone in the next 6 months. She was home with me when I went to my senior prom and helped me get ready for it, as my parents had already left for NY for my sister's college graduation (I went up later). My dad has had a few bouts with prostate cancer, but both times they found it very early through blood test and were able to contain it, but it worries me.

I get so angry when I hear people say that cancer is "practically cured" and it's not that bad. I know that treatments have come a long way and people can survive it longer than they used to, but don't give this "cure" crap. If there's a cure, then why are people still dying? I try not to think to much about it, but at this rate I'm waiting to hear that my mom, my sister, or I have it, as it seems to run in my family.

So, thank you, little jackass, for calling me and getting me all riled up on a Friday night/Saturday morning when all I wanted to do was sleep through the night. Yeah, thanks a lot.

On comparing pain

Had a lot going on the last few weeks. I'm not going to put it all down on "paper" now, but wanted to post here. Nothing bad going on, just busy.

My question today is: Why do we tend to compare our pain and suffering to others and think that nobody could possibly feel as bad as we do when we lose someone we care about?

This came up on one of the childfree boards I visit. There was a discussion about how some people really lose it over an early miscarriage. Many people don't understand that. I do to a point, but since I'm not a kid person and don't want any, I really can't completely comprehend it. However, for the person who loses a baby, it can be very painful. Even though she didn't have the child and "know" it, doesn't mean she didn't have ideas and hopes for the child, hopes that were instantly dashed. It's painful.

Then another person said she couldn't understand how people can go to pieces over losing their grandparent who is 80+. Perhaps this person wasn't close or didn't know her grandparents, but when my grandmother died in her 70s it was very hard, and it's going to be hard when my still-living grandmother dies. She's in her 90s and has gone downhill quite a bit in the last few months and it's sad for me to see.

When we lose someone, whether it's a child, spouse, brother, parent, grandparent, uncle, friend, pet -- whatever -- it hurts. I hate it when people get into the "I hurt worse than you" crap because it completely disregards the feelings of the person who supposedly is supposed to be over it. There's no time limit to these things. My grandmother died in 1989 when I was 18. I moved on, got over it, etc. However, I often find myself thinking if she would be proud of me, what she would say to me, if she'd still call me a "dumb bunny" if I did something stupid (lol), and I wonder if she's looking down on me and approving of me. I'm sure that sounds really corny, but it's true.

So please, next time your childless friend is heartbroken because her cat died, don't tell her to get over it a few days later because it was "just a cat." If your friend miscarries, don't tell her to get over it the next week because "it wasn't even really a baby yet." A little compassion can go a long way sometimes.

Miscellaneous stuff

1. Well, yesterday was an interesting day in Philly. I was at work and I kept hearing helicopters. Finally, I started wondering what was going on and I checked the news online and heard about the explosion under One Penn Center. It was electrical, something about an overloaded cable. Apparently there were anywhere from 3 to 5 explosions and lots of that icky green smoke. Manhole covers were blowin into the air and the footage showed flames shooting out of the manholes. One person was sent to the hospital, but I think it was because she was so scared, not because of physical injuries. I imagine that many people in those buildings thought at first that it was terrorism.

My building is about 2 blocks over, and luckily we didn't lose power or have to evacuate. A 36-square block area was shut down. Luckily, everything is somewhat back to normal today. They say that one retail store near City Hall still is without power, and parts of Ranstead Street are closed, but other than that things are fine.


2. You know, I really used to like the Today Show. It had nothing to do with Katie Couric, as I was never a big fan, but I guess I like Matt Lauer. But in the last few years I've been getting more and more annoyed by the "news" reported. Most of it isn't news at all, but infotainment. I know, it seems that all of the news shows are like this now. The ruckus over Brad&Angelna and Tom&Katie having babies was a bit over the top, among other things that drive me nuts. Now that Meredith is on the show, there's all this talk about her kids, how she lives, etc. Today they said they were going to "look back" on Meredith's first week on the show. Good grief! She's been there ONE WEEK, not fifty years! It's just so annoying. I guess other people care about that stuff, but I frankly don't care if somebody has a kid, no kids, 5 kids, 10 grandkids, 16 dogs, where they live, how many houses they have, the colors used to decorate her bathroom, etc. Just tell me the freakin' news so I have a clue what's going on. I'd just watch CNN, but I don't always trust them to give me the whole story. Then again, I don't think any news source gives you the whole story, so I may have a lost cause there.

3. Once again I have to say: Just because a person doesn't agree with your politics does NOT mean that person is stupid. It's so stupid. I know some people would like us all to be little clones who all think the same (the same as them, of course). Well, we don't. I don't go around calling all Republicans stupid, or conservatives stupid, or non-Presbyterians stupid, but maybe I should. Obviously, trying to be respectful of another person's opinions gets me nowhere as some are happier throwing around generalizations.

Meh. That's all I have time for today. I gotta get ready for work. At least it's Friday and I can wear comfy clothes today. :)

Took two days, but it's fixed!

I've taken the last two days to be here while whatever was wrong with my tub/shower got fixed so that water would stop leaking into my hallway. It wasn't just a little leak -- every time one of us took a shower the carpet would be sopping wet and you could see shoeprints clearly.

The reason I stayed home (and I'm glad I did) is that I don't trust my apartment (AM) manager to tell the maintenance man (MM) everything I tell her. If I hadn't been here today there would have still been a problem because of it, and it's not MM's fault. This happens all the time.

He recaulked the tub and parts of the shower yesterday but couldn't test the water then because of the caulk, which I understand. Realized I still had an awful leak after I took a shower yesterday, so called AM back yesterday to make sure MM could come out again today. I mentioned to her that we thought the shower could have something to do with it, as we noticed our shower pressure had dropped. As usual, she dismissed that, saying "Oh, that could happen due to a number of reasons, blah blah blah."

So, MM guy came today, took the access panel off the hallway wall and saw that the pipe from the drain area was broken. He also mentioned he'd like to punch whoever had the great idea years ago to put concrete around the pipes so that he had to break up a bunch of concrete to get the old pipe in and put the new one in. It took the guy about 2 hours to do that. After he was done I asked if he could run the shower because we thought that was a problem, too. Wonder of wonders -- she hadn't told him any of that. Yeah, that's why I had to be here, or else I would have had to call him back again. So, he tested it and then installed a new shower arm and head.

So, the problem is fixed but it makes me so mad that I have to take time off from work, my vacation days, to be here because dingbat AM won't tell MM the whole story because SHE KNOWS what the problem is and that whatever I think the problem is couldn't possibly be correct. It wouldn't have bothered me so much, except that I'm gone from Wed - Fri next week at CATS and we are all off on Monday as it's Yom Kippur and we get Jewish holidays off. I'll probably be working some over the weekend. It's not a huge deal, but I don't like being out that many days so close together, especially when today and yesterday were unplanned. I have a cool and understanding boss, and she knew I was worried and told me it's fine, but I don't want to take advantage, either.

Anyway, I just had to get that out of my system. It seems to be OK now, which is good. Now I need to start harping on AM to fix the water damage I've had in my apartment forever due to other plumbing issues that were not my fault. I've mentioned them a few times to her, but I think if I report them again and nothing happens I'll have to write a letter with a list of issues and send it to her and CC it to the owners and possibly a lawyer Tim knows. It's not my fault that the idiots upstairs kept flushing stuff they shouldn't, or that they were using a washing machine in an apartment not set up for it, or that it took AM forever to finally install a new check valve in my kitchen sink so I wasn't getting water backing up in my sink and on my kitchen floor.

How the heck this person got a job as an apartment manager, I'll never know.

(OK, I'm done.)

Genetically altering people to be happy?

I heard something on the news previews this morning that really disturbed me. I can't find an article to support it, but they mentioned that rats had been genetically altered to be more happy and that it had some sort of application toward humans. Now, it was one of those teaser things, so I honestly don't know the "application" mentioned. However, I can't help but think of "The End of the Whole Mess" by Stephen King where the guy came out with something to make people happy and non-aggressive and put it in the water. Years later they found out it caused Alzheimers in everybody who drank the water. The thought of being genetically altered to be Happy Humans really disturbs me. Sure, it would be nice if less people were Prozac and similar drugs, but I'm sure there are better ways to deal with it.

Ick.

Learn something new every day

Got a few minutes here, but gotta get to work soon. I came in early to get extra work done, not blog. :)

Anyway, I didn't realize until yesterday that it's ASSumed that if a person at work asks a person of the opposite sex to lunch, they must be having an affair -- or at least, the person who did the asking "wants" the other person, if you catch my drift.

Apparently, I'm a very immoral person who intends to take away husbands from their wives because I have lunch with male coworkers at times. Granted, most of the people where I currently work are female, but in other places I've gone to lunch with a male co-worker. It was just the two of us, nobody else -- the horror!

Look, if you don't feel comfortable with that situation, fine. I guess, then, you need to be sure that your spouse doesn't get a job where he/she may need to travel with members of the opposite sex or have lunch meetings with a member of the opposite sex with nobody else around. I can't imagine it going over well with a bossman if somebody says they can't do their job because they have to eat or travel alone with a person of the opposite sex.

Maybe I'm just different. You know, Tim has hardly been home except for weekends for the past few months, helping his mom recover from her knee replacement surgery. This may be a huge shock to some people, but I TRUST HIM! I don't sit around and stew, calling him every second to be sure that's where he is. Another shocker -- sometimes he even goes to a bar and there are women there and he (gulp) talks to them! WHATEVER WILL I DO? Of course, he tells me that some drunk bimbo made a pass at him and laughs about it.

I'm sure there are people who think that, by "allowing" him to do what he wants, that I'm opening him up to temptation and that he'll cheat on me. Well, could be, but that's not my style and I'm more apt to trust my own gut and instincts than someone who doesn't know me. I'm also more willing to trust TIM than someone who doesn't really know me. I sometimes wonder how people live if they are constantly on the lookout for somebody trying to "steal" their spouse? I couldn't live like that, always wondering, watching every move he makes and that others make around him. What's the point of being in a relationship where you can't trust the person?

If part of your relationship is that your spouse feels the same way as you and doesn't put himself into any sort of lunch/travel/whatever with the opposite sex, great. It means you are both on the same wavelength and have the same thoughts about issues that are important to you. You trust each other to act a certain way. Well, Tim and I trust each other to also act a certain way, too.

Then again, I'm not married so my opinion doesn't matter. We don't have that little piece of paper that says we're legally married, therefore there's absolutely no committment, so it's just ASSumed one of us will cheat anyway, right?

Yeesh!

Good grief!

A few minor rants today:

1. One does not need to see the new movie World Trade Center to be a "proud American." This gets so old. Also, just because a person doesn't want to see the movie or doesn't agree with the war in Iraq does NOT mean that the person has forgotten what happened 9/11. No, it just means that maybe that person thinks there was a better way of handling the aftermath and that 9/11 had nothing to do with the war in Iraq.

I think I posted about this a while back, but I don't intend to see this movie in the theater and may some day watch it at home. Just seeing the previews upsets me. I do watch that last DVD of my New York documentary from time to time, and for me that works better than a Hollywood movie. I also know that the actual policemen and their wives were part of the process of making this movie, so I think, although it's Hollywood, it will be fairly accurate to what happened to them. Still, if I see it I will be at home where I will feel free to be emotional.


2. AC/DC and similar music is not going to make people crazy and do things they wouldn't do otherwise. I can understand not wanting a young child wearing a shirt like that, especially when he just likes the look of it and doesn't know who AC/DC is. However, I disagree that it's devil music -- that whole thing gets soooooo old. I listened to, and still listen to, that kind of music and I have yet to grow horns, kill a person, or anything else some people seem to associate with metal. I will admit to, when I was younger, wearing my Metallica t-shirts and heavy black eye makeup to go cross stitch shopping, just to see the reactions lol. I don't like being pigeon-holed and it was my way of getting a bit of a rise out of people, maybe making them think for a split second about their assumptions. I was always very polite and nice and always bought a decent amount of stuff. When I did the same thing at other stores I noticed that I was followed around quite a bit, probably because they thought I'd steal something. At the LNS it was the opposite, because they probably simply thought I was in the wrong store. :)


3. Thewe new H3 commercials are pretty stupid and offensive. The idea that one has to buy one of these gas-guzzling pieces of crap to be a real man or a woman who stands up for herself is stupid. That's the whole problem with some SUV drivers -- notice I said SOME, not ALL. Some of these people get behind the wheel of these monster vehicles and they get a power trip and drive like maniacs and think they own the road and that everybody needs to get out of the way. So now we have a lovely commercial driving that attitude home. Great job.


That is all. I'm sure I'll have more ranting later, the way things already are going on some of my boards.