Warning: whiney post ahead
I'm so sick of hurting, and so sick of being told "wait until you're older, then you'll be thankful." Yes, I'm only 37, so I suppose that means I'm really not in pain, it's just my imagination. Quit fricking patronizing me! Just because I'm not over 50, or 60, or whatever the magic age seems to be for allowing pain, doesn't mean I don't hurt on a daily basis!
For the record, I'm going to the doctor again tomorrow, now for my elbow. I know I've banged it a few times but I didn't think I did anything too bad, but it looks weird. Now, it's not as bad as it sounds or I wouldn't be here typing on the computer, but it looks like either there's a big bump on that outer bump of my elbow or a bone isn't right or something. It bothers me off and on, but is more of an ache or a throbbing than any sort of sharp pain. I can't lift much with it and it hurts for me to answer the telephone when I'm at my desk.
Add that to the tendonitis in the wrist on my other arm that never really went away, just gets better or worse, my ever-present knee pain that I've had pretty much since I was a kid, and the foot issue (something else I'm going to mention when I see the doctor tomorrow), and I'm just hurting all the time. I'm REALLY trying not to be a baby and suck it up and not complain. When I mentioned problems when someone asked me why I wasn't in the yoga class anymore, I pretty much got the "Well, be thankful that you aren't worse off." Well, thank you. I KNOW I could be worse off -- duh. However, that doesn't always help when you're in pain, you know?
Anyway, that's enough of that. I just had to get it out. I'm sick of being treated like there couldn't possibly be anything wrong and I couldn't possibly be in any "real" pain because of my age.
For the record, I'm going to the doctor again tomorrow, now for my elbow. I know I've banged it a few times but I didn't think I did anything too bad, but it looks weird. Now, it's not as bad as it sounds or I wouldn't be here typing on the computer, but it looks like either there's a big bump on that outer bump of my elbow or a bone isn't right or something. It bothers me off and on, but is more of an ache or a throbbing than any sort of sharp pain. I can't lift much with it and it hurts for me to answer the telephone when I'm at my desk.
Add that to the tendonitis in the wrist on my other arm that never really went away, just gets better or worse, my ever-present knee pain that I've had pretty much since I was a kid, and the foot issue (something else I'm going to mention when I see the doctor tomorrow), and I'm just hurting all the time. I'm REALLY trying not to be a baby and suck it up and not complain. When I mentioned problems when someone asked me why I wasn't in the yoga class anymore, I pretty much got the "Well, be thankful that you aren't worse off." Well, thank you. I KNOW I could be worse off -- duh. However, that doesn't always help when you're in pain, you know?
Anyway, that's enough of that. I just had to get it out. I'm sick of being treated like there couldn't possibly be anything wrong and I couldn't possibly be in any "real" pain because of my age.
5 Comments:
At 5:29 AM,
Aussie Stitcher said…
I am a little bit older than you and I too suffer from various aches and pains, though I have not suffered from negative comments like you, {{{HUGS}}}
At 5:51 AM,
Chiloe said…
Pain is pain, whatever age you are ... YOu should tell the doctor about the way you feel with your pain and how tired you are of it ... (((hugs)))
At 10:43 AM,
Karen said…
So sorry you're in pain. :(
When I herniated a disc in my back a few years ago, I was in horrendous pain. I was about 35/36at the time. I went to see a doctor, and can you believe he said, "Well, you look great! It's better to look good than to feel good!" What an idiot. I never went back to him. On top of that, I was getting a lot of "have a baby" pressure from people around me. Ummm, I'm in horrendous pain and you want me to get pregnant?? I know the clock is ticking, but I wasn't about to get myself pregnant with 2 herniated discs, sciatica and constant back pain.
Sometimes I think it's harder to be in pain when you're younger because you're not SUPPOSED to be in pain, you know? When you're 80, sure, you're going to have aches and pains and such. But you shouldn't be in daily pain in your 30s. It just seems wrong.
Tell people to get stuffed if they don't have compassion. Maybe one day they'll be in pain themselves, and hopefully will remember how cold they were to you!
At 11:25 PM,
Anonymous said…
Sorry you are hurting! I so understand your dilemma. Maybe it is something that can be adjusted-like a chiropractor or by massage therapy. My mom has sciatica and a hip issue. I know someone who is only 41 who had something stretched in one of her hips. Me, it's the Lyme Disease that gives me funny aches and pains. And I swear hormones play havoc on our system. I know I started having hormonal issues when I was about 38.
Good luck!
At 10:08 PM,
Stitching said…
I understand your pain...When I was 20 I was hit by a drunk driver. I spent 3 months in the hospital and 1 1/2 years on crutches with several surgeries. Every step I took was in pain. 30 years later I had a knee replaced. Still with pain...Now I need my right knee and hip replaced. I really understand your pain. I often wonder what it would be like to wake up without pain...then I realize ... I would have to be dead. hang in there. huggerz laurel
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